Faith Through The Seasons

      I love looking at life as an adventure. I firmly believe we can never fully be prepared for what it holds, and taking it in as it comes makes it much easier to manage. Each day comes with it's own set of challenges and rules for navigating. As I go through this thing called life, I can't imagine doing it without my faith in Jesus. There is so much that happens in the short time that we are here, and as the seasons change, it's always amazing to me to experience what happens in each one. Some have been trying and intense, filled with tears and pain. Others are full of joy and laughter. All of them are packed with learning and growing.

     At this point in life I feel like I am growing in a new way. Currently we are pregnant with our third child, and are expecting him at the end of September. Along with this, my husband left his full time job in April to pursue a God given dream to have his own business, and is working out of our garage, as an engineer/machinist to see it come to fruition. So far we don't have an income, but have a little saved to keep us a float. 

       As I think about the season that we are in my mind is given to two trains of thought. The first being the natural human reaction of "what on earth are we doing???". The second being, I know that this is what we are called to, and even at the midnight hour, the God who I serve will provide all that we need. I am so grateful for the faith that I have, because without it I know that I wouldn't be able to support my husband, and care for my family the way that I have been enabled to. There is a holy drive inside of me to see us successful, and even on the roughest days you can't sway me. I fully believe that this is exactly where we are supposed to be right now, but there are moments where the exhaustion of having two little ones, along with being in my third trimester take there toll on me. It's in these moments that I find the roots of my faith growing deeper, and hear that still small voice that always leads me back to peace and trusting that God is in this. That He is for us and with us. That He is guiding and directing our path, and my husbands hands and mind as he works day and night to make his dream come to life. 

       As Hebrews 11:1 says, "Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see." This season has given me a greater understanding of faith and holding fast to what I know to be true. How beautiful it will be to look back on all of this, and see the faithfulness of God through it all. For now I hold fast to the hope that I know.